I am not an adult. I may have lived 20 years, but inside, I know that I am a child of around 10-12. It kills me that I can't have that body – that I have to be stuck in this ugly, adult body that I know I don't belong in. I am a child, but I will never be seen that way by society. I'm just so heartbroken, and I don't want to live anymore. The pain has become unbearable.