1. Possible TW; related to title + mention of religion + hate grown ups
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3. At first I couldn't think of where to put this, I could put it in any number of subforums (anxiety, DID, etc,) , but I've decided to put it here since I actually have a PTSD diagnosis.
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5. I don't understand phrases like "Children don't have responsibilities", or "If you want to stop being treated like a kid, stop acting like one!"
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7. Why does "being treated like a kid" mean being treated with disrespect, disbelieved, discredited, your interests being met with disinterest? What is so wrong with kids, and whats so great about adults?
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9. I feel like I'm a kid inside. I feel like it is not the same way other people have an inner child, I feel like I am emotionally still 12 years old, sometimes even much younger. I always dreaded growing up. I saw grown-ups as something bad, something boring. Grown-ups never wanted to play with me. They were always too busy with school or with work or with cleaning. I always thought I'd never get my period, and once it came I started to starve myself in hopes I could stop myself from growing. Even now I dress in childlike clothing and people make fun of me because I frequently talk in a high pitched childlike voice with "off" grammar. Its not an act. It just happens and I can't control it. I feel like this self is my core self.
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11. I had a lot of responsibilities as a child. But none of them were responsibilities of the grown-up world. I had the responsibility to work on my best friends comic characters with her, to help her with her comics, to make sure she wasn't harmed. I had the responsibility of making sure all animals were okay. I don't feel like I can ever go back to religion, but I had the responsibility of spreading the gospel. I chose these responsibilities. I'm not intentionally trying to go back to avoid responsibility. I just don't see the point in adult responsibility.
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13. I hate adults. All "adulthood" means is taking the sunshine out of life.