1. I feel for you all. Tonight I'm sitting on the roof of a building near by. Typing this from my torified phone. I just get so fucking angry at the world and my self and become so depressed because I am all of the things I truly hate and told myself I wouldn't be. I want to just jump now and end this bullshit existence. I hate this world so much.
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3. People are sheep walking around in their own fucking sheep life as a clone of the next stupid person never realizing whats going on around them. Why can't we all just wake up and change this world and the horrid people who run it.
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5. I am my own worst enemy. I fight myself every day. Biding my time before there is a change in my life.
6. There are time I wish I would get caught and end up in prison. It would force a change which is needed.
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8. I'm listening to the song harakiri by Serj tankien. Which must be one of the most beautiful pieces of art work in existence. Everyone must watch the music video for this song.
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10. Then there are the people who say, there is always someone who cares about you, "I care about you."
11. Fucking bullshit. People are self centered whores, who do nothing for others. Only "fake acts of kindness." All so fucking high and mighty. I want to jump so bad.
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13. Sorry for my rambling on. Tonight is one of the worst nights of my life.
14. I'm sad to know that I won't jump. Blissfully ending this sad existence and failure of a human life. I always tell myself that who knows what will happen to bring change, so don't off yourself, because tomorrow could be the day you find happiness. I, such as every other "happy" person must lie to myself, saying it will all get better. When it won't.